My First
Love
When I was in 3th grade Junior
High School, I felt very beautiful friendship. It was make me felt to be the
happiest people in the world because I have them. They are always there in
pleasure and sadness. I enjoy a lot of it. Until the end I stuck in love with
my friend. Oh really unexpected! How could I fall in love with him? may be true
proverb Javanese, "Witing tresna jalaran saka kulino” meaning is fall in
love because of familiar together. About him, let's call him Adam.
Day by day, my
closeness to him grew. At first, I did not have feelings for her, in
fact I ever had to hate him.
But he
keeps close to me and seducing me.
In fact, he already has a girlfriend. "crazy man!" I thought. But when I think about it
again, he didn’t crazy, but I
did. How could my heart stolen by him? This was a distress to me, I should not
be fall in love with
him. I was told all this to my
friend, Rahma. To
reduce this feeling, I try little by little to
avoid him. Although
pain,
I
had to do it.
Know
my attitude
change,
he was immediately
asked
to
Rahma.
On a
cold night,
Adam
expressed
his feeling
to me.
I
was surprised,
because
as long as
we
cover each other
our
feelings.
I'm
also
glad to hear that,
my heart
blossomed,
my cheeks
became
rosy,
like people who are
in love.
But
suddenly I
thought of
Susan,
Adam’s girlfriend .
I'm
feels
like
fly high,
but fell
instantly.
Adam
saw
my
response
and he
understand
what I was thinking.
He
convinced me that
as long as
there was no
wedding, our
feeling(love) are fine.
I
also accept
suggestions given
by
Adam.
At that time,
I
was really
blinded by love.
I
passed every second with him. I enjoy
whatever happens. Until the end he break up with his girlfriend. They broke up not because of me, but
because his ex-girlfriend not attention
to him. After that, I did not date
him. We have committed to not date, because
if dating can certainly break up, we do not want it all. I feel fortunate loved by him. There was one thing which always I do to him, wake he every morning to pray
Subuh. We also hang out with our friends.
I’m so happy to do anything with him. Because
we will test, we often learn together. Adam and I were often
to be subject of ridicule by my friends because
of our relationship. At that time, I just smile
when they ridicule me and him.
Beautiful days almost over. I could
not help to go from Junior High School who has brought me to my first love,
Adam. I want to get a Senior High School with Adam, but it was all a dream. At
first Adam would school in the village with me, but it fact he just wanted to
make my heart calm. He was hiding that he school in the city. He did not want
me to know about it, because he was afraid I would be sad if I knew. But
finally I had to know. I'm sad because I'm not a school with him.
Rice
has become porridge. There's no way
I'm blocking him
to school in the city. Announcement of tests already
out, and the results he's received. Little by little, I began to accept this
reality. I actually started give spirit him,
because he was still
doubt to go there. While all this difficult
and tortured for us. At first we are optimistic to do Long Distance Relationships or commonly called LDR,
because we believe the power of love
will not be hindered by time and space.
One
day, he would
go to the city. I
want to delivered him, but was not allowed by him because he fear of my safety. Shortly before he left,
he asked me to lunch together. At lunch, we used the time so short to unlimited talk. I saw
the sparkle of love
that was so heartfelt to me. It made me
even more love and I grew to believe that he
would keep the heart to me. He said, "Call me anytime
you want, I will surely come.". A word that
sounds very nice. At that
moment I felt that the song "Mungkinkah"
by Stingky very
suitable to represent my feelings. The song became
memorable to me. He
also often send song
quietly to my phone to express his feelings to me. In the last vacations
before school, he
always played to my house.
It also made me
more and more love, the courage to play
to my house, until my family knew him.
Long-distance
relationship that we run,
while initially running well. Adam
often to come home
and play with me. But a few months later, my relationship with him begin loose. I
become sad. But there was make me proud with him is that he did not want date because he did not want to ruin my morals. So far, we’re like
a pair of lovers, but we're not dating. He
said he wanted to be a star,
althought not always shine, but always
there. The word always I held until this day. Now
I let it all flow like water. "If he's
my destiny, he'll come back to me, but if
not, I'll let it go, and hope Allah give
better than him." That was my pray in every time.
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