Kamis, 11 Oktober 2012

My First Love


My First Love

When I was in 3th grade Junior High School, I felt very beautiful friendship. It was make me felt to be the happiest people in the world because I have them. They are always there in pleasure and sadness. I enjoy a lot of it. Until the end I stuck in love with my friend. Oh really unexpected! How could I fall in love with him? may be true proverb Javanese, "Witing tresna jalaran saka kulino” meaning is fall in love because of familiar together. About him, let's call him Adam.

            Day by day, my closeness to him grew. At first, I did not have feelings for her, in fact I ever had to hate him. But he keeps close to me and seducing me. In fact, he already has a girlfriend. "crazy man!" I thought. But when I think about it again, he didn’t crazy, but I did. How could my heart stolen by him? This was a distress to me, I should not be fall in love with him. I was told all this to my friend, Rahma. To reduce this feeling, I try little by little to avoid him.  Although pain, I had to do it. Know my attitude change, he was immediately asked to Rahma.
            On a cold night, Adam expressed his feeling to me. I was surprised, because as long as we cover each other our feelings. I'm also glad to hear that, my heart blossomed, my cheeks became rosy, like people who are in love. But suddenly I thought of Susan, Adam’s girlfriend . I'm feels like fly high, but fell instantly. Adam saw my response and he understand what I was thinking. He convinced me that as long as there was no wedding, our feeling(love) are fine. I also accept suggestions given by Adam. At that time, I was really blinded by love.
            I passed every second with him. I enjoy whatever happens. Until the end he break up with his girlfriend. They broke up not because of me, but because his ex-girlfriend not attention to him. After that, I did not date him. We have committed to not date, because if dating can certainly break up, we do not want it all. I feel fortunate loved by him. There was one thing which always I do to him, wake he every morning to pray Subuh. We also hang out with our friends. I’m so happy to do anything with him. Because we will test, we often learn together. Adam and I were often to be subject of ridicule by my friends because of our relationship. At that time, I just smile when they ridicule me and him.
            Beautiful days almost over. I could not help to go from Junior High School who has brought me to my first love, Adam. I want to get a Senior High School with Adam, but it was all a dream. At first Adam would school in the village with me, but it fact he just wanted to make my heart calm. He was hiding that he school in the city. He did not want me to know about it, because he was afraid I would be sad if I knew. But finally I had to know. I'm sad because I'm not a school with him.
            Rice has become porridge. There's no way I'm blocking him to school in the city. Announcement of tests already out, and the results he's received. Little by little, I began to accept this reality. I actually started give spirit him, because he was still doubt to go there. While all this difficult and tortured for us. At first we are optimistic to do Long Distance Relationships or commonly called LDR, because we believe the power of love will not be hindered by time and space.
One day, he would go to the city. I want to delivered him, but was not allowed by him because he fear of my safety. Shortly before he left, he asked me to lunch together. At lunch, we used the time so short to unlimited talk. I saw the sparkle of  love that was so heartfelt to me. It made ​​me even more love and I grew to believe that he would keep the heart to me. He said, "Call me anytime you want, I will surely come.". A word that sounds very nice. At that moment I felt that the song "Mungkinkah" by Stingky very suitable to represent my feelings. The song became memorable to me. He also often send song quietly to my phone to express his feelings to me. In the last vacations before school, he always played to my house. It also made ​​me more and more love, the courage to play to my house, until my family knew him.
Long-distance relationship that we run, while initially running well. Adam often  to come home and play with me. But a few months later, my relationship with him begin loose. I become sad. But there was make me  proud with him is that he did not want date because he did not want to ruin my morals. So far, were like a pair of lovers, but we're not dating. He said he wanted to be a star, althought not always shine, but always there. The word always I held until this day. Now I let it all flow like water. "If he's my destiny, he'll come back to me, but if not, I'll let it go, and hope Allah give better than him." That was my pray in every time.



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